Feed the soul, not the body

'Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels'

CAUTION: This might be triggering...

Hei, I'm D. I'm fat.
My only wish? Skinny.
I'm 5'9"
GW1: 125 lbs
GW1: 115
UGW:105 lbs
CW: 140 lbs

The ED Directory
thinsearch:

pretty tummy

thinsearch:

pretty tummy

(via d-i-e-i-n-g-t-h-i-n)

I lost my phone a couple of weeks ago. The only thing that bothered me about that was the fact that i also lost the pics in there. Pics of my body, my progress.

 I had tons of pics, my phone is some sort of photo-diary, but i couldn’t care less for most of them except the ones with my body. The ones that grossed me out when i looked at them and made me go on, kept me motivated. 

ABC diet, day 4 

Intake: 400 

  • Cheesepuffs(100)
  • Wheat&nut cake(200)
  • low fat, 0%fat yogurt (31)
  • half banana (50)

Total: 381

roseinhungerland:

Oh my, she is so gorgeous. I know her from Lookbook. Can somebody tell me her name?

roseinhungerland:

Oh my, she is so gorgeous. I know her from Lookbook. Can somebody tell me her name?

(Source: fading-to-paper-thin, via cokewh0resareskinnier)

(Source: m4nduh, via ineedtobeskinnny)

Everyday around so much food. Sucks.

I’m going to a private school… this means they feed us [public schools in my country don’t even have buffets]. We have 2 meals per day, plus 2 snacks. 

  Breakfast is usually milk with cereal or tea with sandwiches [little ones].For the first snack they bring us sandwiches [a LOT of bread with either: nutella/cheese/yellow cheese] and youghurt. For lunch… well, a lot of different foods [all of them healthy, for instance: they never make french fries]. And the 2nd snack its usually something AMAZING… i mean its cake or pie or muffins [basically freshly home-made sweets].

  I’ve been in this school for a long time now and i look back to other years when i ate every meal [except when i didn’t like the food] and sometimes even have more. This year i don’t know it i had 5 meals at school. 

bonesrthenewblack:

Those arms and collarbones. My jaw dropped to the floor.

bonesrthenewblack:

Those arms and collarbones. My jaw dropped to the floor.

(Source: gaptoothbitch, via cokewh0resareskinnier)

40643) I see people with eating disorders wear tight-fitting clothes that expose their bodies, and I just don’t understand how they can do it. I’m so terrified to wear clothes that show my body. It makes me think about how fat I look a hundred times more. I haven’t worn anything tight-fitting to school in over a year (when my ED started). I can’t even wear a tank top or t-shirt that touches my body without my anxiety shooting through the roof. I’m so embarrassed. I’m so ugly.

(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)

stillllugly:

None of this is society’s fault. I am fucked up because I’m fucked up.

(via g-r-i-m-b-o-n-e-s)

ABC diet, day 3

Intake: 300

  • 1 rice cake (34)
  • 1 piece chocolate candy (80)
  • 1 big apple (125)
  • 1 small apple (80)

Total: 319

… 20 calories over. Damn…

40622) If I can’t lose the weight again, I just don’t want to exist. This is absolute hell.

(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)