I lost my phone a couple of weeks ago. The only thing that bothered me about that was the fact that i also lost the pics in there. Pics of my body, my progress.
I had tons of pics, my phone is some sort of photo-diary, but i couldn’t care less for most of them except the ones with my body. The ones that grossed me out when i looked at them and made me go on, kept me motivated.
ABC diet, day 4
Intake: 400
- Cheesepuffs(100)
- Wheat&nut cake(200)
- low fat, 0%fat yogurt (31)
- half banana (50)
Total: 381
Oh my, she is so gorgeous. I know her from Lookbook. Can somebody tell me her name?
(Source: fading-to-paper-thin, via cokewh0resareskinnier)
Everyday around so much food. Sucks.
I’m going to a private school… this means they feed us [public schools in my country don’t even have buffets]. We have 2 meals per day, plus 2 snacks.
Breakfast is usually milk with cereal or tea with sandwiches [little ones].For the first snack they bring us sandwiches [a LOT of bread with either: nutella/cheese/yellow cheese] and youghurt. For lunch… well, a lot of different foods [all of them healthy, for instance: they never make french fries]. And the 2nd snack its usually something AMAZING… i mean its cake or pie or muffins [basically freshly home-made sweets].
I’ve been in this school for a long time now and i look back to other years when i ate every meal [except when i didn’t like the food] and sometimes even have more. This year i don’t know it i had 5 meals at school.
Those arms and collarbones. My jaw dropped to the floor.
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40643) I see people with eating disorders wear tight-fitting clothes that expose their bodies, and I just don’t understand how they can do it. I’m so terrified to wear clothes that show my body. It makes me think about how fat I look a hundred times more. I haven’t worn anything tight-fitting to school in over a year (when my ED started). I can’t even wear a tank top or t-shirt that touches my body without my anxiety shooting through the roof. I’m so embarrassed. I’m so ugly.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)
None of this is society’s fault. I am fucked up because I’m fucked up.
(via g-r-i-m-b-o-n-e-s)
ABC diet, day 3
Intake: 300
- 1 rice cake (34)
- 1 piece chocolate candy (80)
- 1 big apple (125)
- 1 small apple (80)
Total: 319
… 20 calories over. Damn…
40622) If I can’t lose the weight again, I just don’t want to exist. This is absolute hell.
(Source: confessionsabouteatingdisorders)



